19 nov 2009

happy bdae jannah~!
have a great day today ~
can dress up preety preety for jannah's birthday ...
having "make up"session during our digi com lab..
having our luxury lunch in BBq Tm1~!
teachin express net infra in 30 mins.....

rushing to work...

having my 1st dental job at tmp inter...
good experience..yet leg damn pain coz of my stupid shoe....

vry nervous..but fun~!

hehe overall happy and lucky..
coz again i forget to take my POSB card after i withdraw my money and top up my ez link ..thanks to the china guy who ran out and find the owner(* which is me) ..
hhehe..i still ngong ngong..dunno tat was mine..since i m holding the ez link rd...Blek..luckly mum dunno ..or nt ..kena nag by dad again..hehhe... wl also cant stand me rd..hahhaa..

kk tmr ..got tough job summore... k bye with the tired body~;)

10 x ( 1 400) / 100 x 140 = 19600!!!

woohoo~ i m vry happy yet tired..coz i jst break my long lost JOG record~! hehehe..i had jog about 10 rounds.. 7 formal round + 8 informal round...hehehhehe...
leg damn cramp noww..hehe..thnsnk ya dong.. by built up my confidence to JOG again~!whahaha.. i love this feeling...sweat like hell frm 8 15 ? to 1026?? wahhaha aSHIOK ALLALAA,...

19 600 steps ++ can u make it??whaha~
kk time fr me to study ready.. tata

FATED =/= bdae present

fated not to donate..

even ya some say dont believe in those luck or curse...

but it did works..the more i want..the more i urge... ya ..

i wont get...

hapy bdae mom... mom's bdae present is the stuff tat i intend to bought kinda long time ago ... haiz..cant get to buy the stirrer as well... dad dnt allowed... no sponsor ship frm him..everything cant work~

i really a very dissapointed when the nurse say sorry u cant donate coz ur vein is too small...
i was like wth! i already mentally and physically prepared..jesszzz..the worst thing is she say come again 6 months later...didnt do house chore ar? need to do more excersice..-.----" wth~
my hand already so muscular..say me didnt excersice.. vry insulted plzz..... lol@
vryvry envy mingli and yan ming tat can donate bloodd...
wanna donate blood ...coz this is my frst time and it will be an memoreable day ..present for mom.......
wat a joke...
3 of us ..mingli weiling and me... in the end..the most unwilling got it.. ?

..lolz..

hap*sad

wats HAp*sAd stands for??



im home~ dearly home ..ya ..i m back at 10 plus after 3 weeks in sg..

finally home..



i m kinda moody yest...kinda nt feeling gd..



vry tired and stress ..

vry nervous...vry confuse..

vry wat eva...



yest i m struggle to join programme..i saw all the click together..makes me feel like joinning back the programme..but i know..again i might be liek last tiem cant commmitte....i dotn wanan be unfair to others..listen to Cp.. he say aud ..u should join too much of CCA...gonna maintain ur grade.. again..ya ask opinion on Jan..ya ..thanks to Jan she give me a firm answer..ya it makes my mined clear...



then after posting the notice board..went to opp sch for CCN day survey with yessy , davin and Long lost eugene...

Company eugene eating in the food court..

Usuall me... i m not taking any order..

this where smtg affect me again..



yessy askk...y u always dont wanan eat?wanna save money or wat?Y nvr buy things?

she dint saw me buy things ..ya mayb i seems vry kiamsiap to her..but its true ..i didnt really buy food...but i also spent money on stuff liek BOM for nth..jst wanan spent..(this wat according to weiling..lolz...)

i speechless for sudden.....coz...

even me also dunno y m i so stupid and struggling ....

i dont wanna buy food ..coz i forced myself ..not to eat...

MIND hav those concept..

"not to spent on unnesccary $ on foodd..since it will jst make me gain weight... i rather spent those on clothing..."

its a rite concept..i m phobia bout gaining weight after havin drastic change since after poly life started..



I dunno wher my money goes..ppl saw me seems spent kinda lil..same to me..i though i spent a lil..but not... i did spent a lot..but i dunno where..even me myself also puzzled...

mayb i spent on others more than myself..i need to save money to buy present..there are too many ppl birthday....

i m pretty stupid.. alswaays abuse myself...i easily get temp..but ya..i need to CONTROL~
DIeT + save money =win win situation~

written on thurs nite.. to be cont..

Trick or treat?

now..12 43..

kinda sleepy but yet i already took my long lost nap after cam back frm the camp at3 till 6 smtg ...It was raining...feel kinda good...
I 'm happy to hav my long lost gathering dinner with ming li and weiling..Its sweett~

Today activities kinda success , as in the participant did enjoy from preparation till the end of the performance....respond frm the participant is the Hinge of the an wonderful camp..
SO i m glad that they did enjoy the performance..

I ' m sorry to LQ and yessie..if we really dint cooperate well.. i m sorry if i m too autarchy by insist of giving extra prizes to the participant or any funny funny suggestion...DO the last min souvenir to the participant..
sorry beinng keep on searching material for the participant ..end up i mistook ur board(joel)...
and also thanks to LQ ..ur paper mask...

I really must thanks to all me WONDERFUL HELPERS~!!! i really really love ur spontaneity and sporting ,efficient character ..tats y we managed to finished all souvenir for 3 empire within 2 hrs~~thats fast ;)

I M PROUD OF U ALL~!...

thou today is a short day..but its kinda long debrief i m havin..prepared for the worst be4 i go in....so i m still ok with it..suprisingly the feedback wasnt tat cruel..... for programmes ya its true..its kinda cocked up durin the night walk..logistic items is not complete and we didnt realise...mis com on wat task we should do.. .we really make the log confuse...so m i...
i m nervous ..panic..the outdoor log have probs..ther are no time for me for futher brief to some of them.... hence its wher all the problems poop out...

luckly we managed to start on time even the set up a lil too simple and crude... i m sad when i saw all the helpers start to be tired and bored ....i feel so bad bout it...coz i feel the same too..walking 2 level of night walk up down up down nonstop.really kiling me..poor legs...i think gonna have big muscle again..
ppl who dare to come for nightwalk for sure wasnt timid type moreover 90% of guys...how we expect to scare them ...tired of scarin them..instead, it looks more liek a joke ~lolz
nearly break down yesterday.. seriously feel like give up..its vry discouraged thats confirm bt i jst cant control myself.... after bath its already 5 smtg...i m like dead meat..but i cant slp yet..i still in to write a story line for the next day performance use..goodness..thats is seriously killing me...type out the rough crapping storyline that i dont even know wat m i writing about...6 plus only i take my nap till 8...

woke up by davin.. then straight away chiong the slide..who knows..nooby davin..sent my draft to the LT and show all to them rd..-.--"" basket..all typo and grammer mistake sia..being laugh by all the 60 over participant sia!! later on , davin's lappy lag pula..gosh..the power point that i do , did not save...really gone crazy in the LT.... luckly got the copy frm pc...really used tat broken ppt...embarasss plus dissapoint..

This is my 1st time being a real programmer..it makes me realise that i really got lot lot more to learn about... effort is not enough...stresness is shown on my face during nightwalk...
efficiency , awareness , and communications are equally important...
i have to many things and ppl to apologise to....

Kinda dissapoint on myself....i do think most of the time , my intention become troblesome idea to others.. i think i m the one ruined the camp..

however.. its kinda suprise davin say quite a number of participant say it was good , and jst now i also get a inbox msg frm izzul which make me really feel much more better..i feel vry happy ..then summore got good feed back frm qian yu and yan ming which pull me up frm my downess... lolzz..

those words is useless if wasnt told by participant itself ..tats y..it really makes me better..
btw still need to thanks for the good encouragement from all the helpers and friends...

if i wasnt one of the programmer and this post swap to a better programmer
perhaps this halloween camp will be much more better than this??

Night walkl

in Lti m SUPER sad and exhausted ...
..cant imagine i was typing out my depression..
Camp is much more tougher and disappointed than i expected..
i feel sorry ..i feel bad..i m ...
the failure....

Blood

seriously tired..programmer is thousand times tougher than i thought..
plz hold on...i fully use my brain...

plz god..few more days...let it success....
coz one night camp ...
stressness,, guiltynesss ,
today ur tears really make me feel bad...
i had no idea....
i m sorry if i neglected u...
coz even me cant manage myself well...

the end-
blooddy aud.