Trick or treat?

now..12 43..

kinda sleepy but yet i already took my long lost nap after cam back frm the camp at3 till 6 smtg ...It was raining...feel kinda good...
I 'm happy to hav my long lost gathering dinner with ming li and weiling..Its sweett~

Today activities kinda success , as in the participant did enjoy from preparation till the end of the performance....respond frm the participant is the Hinge of the an wonderful camp..
SO i m glad that they did enjoy the performance..

I ' m sorry to LQ and yessie..if we really dint cooperate well.. i m sorry if i m too autarchy by insist of giving extra prizes to the participant or any funny funny suggestion...DO the last min souvenir to the participant..
sorry beinng keep on searching material for the participant ..end up i mistook ur board(joel)...
and also thanks to LQ ..ur paper mask...

I really must thanks to all me WONDERFUL HELPERS~!!! i really really love ur spontaneity and sporting ,efficient character ..tats y we managed to finished all souvenir for 3 empire within 2 hrs~~thats fast ;)

I M PROUD OF U ALL~!...

thou today is a short day..but its kinda long debrief i m havin..prepared for the worst be4 i go in....so i m still ok with it..suprisingly the feedback wasnt tat cruel..... for programmes ya its true..its kinda cocked up durin the night walk..logistic items is not complete and we didnt realise...mis com on wat task we should do.. .we really make the log confuse...so m i...
i m nervous ..panic..the outdoor log have probs..ther are no time for me for futher brief to some of them.... hence its wher all the problems poop out...

luckly we managed to start on time even the set up a lil too simple and crude... i m sad when i saw all the helpers start to be tired and bored ....i feel so bad bout it...coz i feel the same too..walking 2 level of night walk up down up down nonstop.really kiling me..poor legs...i think gonna have big muscle again..
ppl who dare to come for nightwalk for sure wasnt timid type moreover 90% of guys...how we expect to scare them ...tired of scarin them..instead, it looks more liek a joke ~lolz
nearly break down yesterday.. seriously feel like give up..its vry discouraged thats confirm bt i jst cant control myself.... after bath its already 5 smtg...i m like dead meat..but i cant slp yet..i still in to write a story line for the next day performance use..goodness..thats is seriously killing me...type out the rough crapping storyline that i dont even know wat m i writing about...6 plus only i take my nap till 8...

woke up by davin.. then straight away chiong the slide..who knows..nooby davin..sent my draft to the LT and show all to them rd..-.--"" basket..all typo and grammer mistake sia..being laugh by all the 60 over participant sia!! later on , davin's lappy lag pula..gosh..the power point that i do , did not save...really gone crazy in the LT.... luckly got the copy frm pc...really used tat broken ppt...embarasss plus dissapoint..

This is my 1st time being a real programmer..it makes me realise that i really got lot lot more to learn about... effort is not enough...stresness is shown on my face during nightwalk...
efficiency , awareness , and communications are equally important...
i have to many things and ppl to apologise to....

Kinda dissapoint on myself....i do think most of the time , my intention become troblesome idea to others.. i think i m the one ruined the camp..

however.. its kinda suprise davin say quite a number of participant say it was good , and jst now i also get a inbox msg frm izzul which make me really feel much more better..i feel vry happy ..then summore got good feed back frm qian yu and yan ming which pull me up frm my downess... lolzz..

those words is useless if wasnt told by participant itself ..tats y..it really makes me better..
btw still need to thanks for the good encouragement from all the helpers and friends...

if i wasnt one of the programmer and this post swap to a better programmer
perhaps this halloween camp will be much more better than this??

Night walkl

in Lti m SUPER sad and exhausted ...
..cant imagine i was typing out my depression..
Camp is much more tougher and disappointed than i expected..
i feel sorry ..i feel bad..i m ...
the failure....

Blood

seriously tired..programmer is thousand times tougher than i thought..
plz hold on...i fully use my brain...

plz god..few more days...let it success....
coz one night camp ...
stressness,, guiltynesss ,
today ur tears really make me feel bad...
i had no idea....
i m sorry if i neglected u...
coz even me cant manage myself well...

the end-
blooddy aud.

4th day of sch

4th day of sch ..
already killing my softly..i predictted my life ....
is gonna be more tiring.....

thank god..i m still free frmm books..can escape frm lec and tutorial for mean while..
club stuff really piercing me.....
neither organiser nor programmer is a good things when both come together..battle begin...
book seeling ..kinda sacred me too...both us organiser..me blur blur..he blur blur... keep the money really can feel the stress..everyday count $...tired..really tired..i can go blind soon ...use logicall mind to think the method to count $ every night is a battle night..money not telli..ya..gone case..everything need to recount..perhaps those kind of things really need biss student to do..

i cant understand myself..m i doin lots of work?or i do last minutes work..m i over react or i m jst too much...too ambitious?m i doin the rite things...wat are other do while i m squeezing my head to think of the games ..wat are others do while i m trying my vry best to tell meet up the helpers..i m tired by standing 4 hrs to explain...m i kinda focus too much on wanna make this camp great?
but i m kinda loosserr..i cant come out with the things on time...no conclusion ..no log..no comunication...no much discussion...everybody is REAL busy .....i m sorry if i try to escape by absent last time...but i did my vry vry vry best this few weeks to really come out with smtg..i did put on serious effort here.. ..i m sorry to the helpers if i m lil to sudden or randomm..

hard effort mess up the plan...i dunt know m i doin the rite thing? all i know is recruite more ppl .. previous case for helpers ..now for participant..again... i recruite ppl blindly....the more the better like robot.coz i thought the camp will be sucks with little kinda small amount of participant..till i found out the amount is exceed...gosh..i know the mess wat i did already.. perhaps need to replan some of the programme again...pheewww..
tmr ashrae camp..no time for discussion again...

i did put in my effort..myb is jst not enough....did u?

wat should i feel?

where should i start..start form?

REFRESSSHH my memorryyy....
k come back to msia....after my bdae outing with tei yw and em they all...

while having evening lunch with teo and em..get called to work....as OFFICE LADY~
woohoo.. for 3 days....

coz wat..coz i need to rush back to sg again for meeting and also camp~~~
3 days working..dont even ask bout $$ coz i already prepared to really jst gain experience..working in chia sin travel ....ya..today...my last day of working..however total up i jst work for 7 days only ..HA! ..3 days be4 camp 4 days after camp --

these few days i manage to get rm140..hard earn money seh.... (btw..convert to sg..i really able to get that amount in 2 days time..but on the other hand , ii wont experience that much if i work in sg..so its still consider worth it ..)


good experienccee..thou...today..when i get my salary..ha...really unexpected "salary"..
the only things is i try not to go there to frequent coz..
in order not to be toooo free , i need to bring my new moon there to read to spent my time..hence i go alternate days.. coz i wanna collect more task to do in one day... when they ask me to work again after i came back frm camp..hehe..

is true..i did learn lot of things..especially on fill up passport~~~ can recognise the faces ready sia..and also VISA~ hehe..china visa ? india visa? no problem..ask me next time~
heheh....smmore need to type type type..translate trip schedule..gosh..make me nervous only...see my eng already knwo how broken it is..

on tues, during my off day..intend to pluck the tooth rd...damn ass..closed pula..
luckly go find yewhui..happy happy there..meet her for while ...
scare me sia cox i hav no much time to pluck out my tooth ready since i need to take out the thread summore...so...

on wed night i m damn tired ready lar ..yet still cant slp ..coz i still need to rush "smtg" before i gonna pluck my tooth on thurs.. ALL BECOZ OF THAT ~ make me miserable..make me disgrace..make me sacrisfied..make me ..squueeeze my brain..

i manage to go on thrus during my off day as well..i wasnt tat painful , perhaps i m more BRAVE~ or mayb can say i m jst too used to it..
cant even talk due to the stitch....dont even wish to talk plz...
..the next day ..still need to talk on the phone..wasnt a good task to be an operator during this time~..phew..luckly som1 created pain killer..

erhm..overall i m still happy with the job..hope tat i can be tour guide next tiem XD ~ !
erhm..nth much to say jst wanan say happy birth day ayah and dawisha!~ hav a nice food fest today....in ibu house 3 in one...laksa johor...nasi serai....roti jala....
and also kfc treat in chia sin..with may, kat , anita , eugene dll....

and sorry to miss yw..that cancelled her bdae steamboat celebration coz of me?? lolzzzz..k lar..oh ya..and today i bought another sandal again..heee..(choose damn long..untill i get paiseh sia...) too many mouth spoilt the mood....
k thats all my recent story about~thank u~
love.aud